oh Amore!!
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OOnce in a while i come to a point when everything is zero.
Yesterday's up or down doesn't effect anything. I am in a place, like a womb,
like a still unborn baby, but the difference being I have an adult, insecure
fearful mind.
I have nothing, and all that I wanted to accomplish seems unworthwhile. The
world is there, with its million choices, and it's difficult to chose because my
adult prrbah mind finds fault with everything. Even buddha doesn't pass the
test.
We have all faced the world for however many years.
We have seen on an everyday basis new things and thngs repeating themselves.
Pleasant and unpleasant.
Fantasy, and fear are manifestations of the unstable mind. The stable mind sees
all as one, and equal. Nothing is big enough, or too small.
So the void I feel is both pleasant and unpleasant. As if I have a clean chit,
when I need a resume.
have you felt it at anytime...?
I feel small I talk big, I feel big I am silent.
I can't do much for anybody except engage them in dialogue. Maybe make people
think. No I don't think that's true either. I am now moving out of the void.
This mail is doing its job.
I have a plan for the evening, I have fantasies and fears. Talk and action.
I'd like one of you with surplus to lend me some will power.
Is there anybody?
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